Yay Tho I Walk Through The Valley...
Trials sometimes are so unforeseeable... That is where I was yesterday afternoon.. When the wind hit my sails and I was left devastated.. Its the smallest thing sometimes.. Others would look at you and say.. This is just a test.. God is with you.. But what happens when your trial hits you at an untouchable core.. A strong left hook.. that not only strikes you... knocks you out!
It is at these times, that our prayers become curses.. Our anger reveals its ugly head... This is the "surprise exam", "pop quiz", that literally makes or breaks our earthly score... I have to say I failed "at first". Of course, I went through all the psychological mumbo jumbo "pity", "anger", "self-denial"... Sigmund Freud would have had a hayday.. but to me.. it was so real..
The past couple months.. I have been on a spiritual high... Things have been going almost to smooth.. which should have been my first clue.. Seeing how clues "should be my thing"... I got caught up in the euphoria of living life.. How good was I though, when challenges and storms hit me? Not so much.. turns out.. and I let a human error on my part.. Devastate all facets of my life.. quickly...
One thing I learned from my "personal disaster" (I know its overly dramatic).. was.. to pick up on how others might feel going through my same experience.. This taught me.. This was so unfair.. But I walked away "seeing".. I understood.. I know knew what others felt like and could identify with such unfairness.. I became an "advocate" for justice.. Not a nuisance or vindicator.. But looked for a possible solution.. to not only what I could have done differently.. but the system as a whole..
I knew this happened to teach me.. To prepare me.. To give me understanding.. And even as upset as I was.. I knew God was still good.. I was still loved.. and a year from now.. this would be petty.. This wasn't easy.. I remember hearing many times growing up "life isn't fair"... Then, I had no idea.. But, it isn't.. It comes down to how we deal with "walking through the valley".. we all love conquering our giants, hiking mountains, zip lining through skylines.. but our true character is shaped in the valley's.. face first on the earth.. humbled.. broken.. poured out..
Even when the crowd is chanting.. and we've been defeated.. we all must get up.. and face the music.. I challenge us all.. To face the giant of humiliation, anger, self-pity.. and be victorious in the small battles.. our minds.. our pride.. our self-discipline.. this reward is greater than any dust collecting medal...
Written by a human errorist......
It is at these times, that our prayers become curses.. Our anger reveals its ugly head... This is the "surprise exam", "pop quiz", that literally makes or breaks our earthly score... I have to say I failed "at first". Of course, I went through all the psychological mumbo jumbo "pity", "anger", "self-denial"... Sigmund Freud would have had a hayday.. but to me.. it was so real..
The past couple months.. I have been on a spiritual high... Things have been going almost to smooth.. which should have been my first clue.. Seeing how clues "should be my thing"... I got caught up in the euphoria of living life.. How good was I though, when challenges and storms hit me? Not so much.. turns out.. and I let a human error on my part.. Devastate all facets of my life.. quickly...
One thing I learned from my "personal disaster" (I know its overly dramatic).. was.. to pick up on how others might feel going through my same experience.. This taught me.. This was so unfair.. But I walked away "seeing".. I understood.. I know knew what others felt like and could identify with such unfairness.. I became an "advocate" for justice.. Not a nuisance or vindicator.. But looked for a possible solution.. to not only what I could have done differently.. but the system as a whole..
I knew this happened to teach me.. To prepare me.. To give me understanding.. And even as upset as I was.. I knew God was still good.. I was still loved.. and a year from now.. this would be petty.. This wasn't easy.. I remember hearing many times growing up "life isn't fair"... Then, I had no idea.. But, it isn't.. It comes down to how we deal with "walking through the valley".. we all love conquering our giants, hiking mountains, zip lining through skylines.. but our true character is shaped in the valley's.. face first on the earth.. humbled.. broken.. poured out..
Even when the crowd is chanting.. and we've been defeated.. we all must get up.. and face the music.. I challenge us all.. To face the giant of humiliation, anger, self-pity.. and be victorious in the small battles.. our minds.. our pride.. our self-discipline.. this reward is greater than any dust collecting medal...
Written by a human errorist......
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